Now a days, I don't have time to read any books or do some baking. Whenever I'm off work, I hit myself to the gym to release the stress from the day. I'm still amaze how I can carry a 20KG weight and did a 12KG kettlebell swing for 1 min, after stopping working out with weight for over a year. I'm taking boxing and Muay Thai back too, my moves are rusty as hell.

But all from all, with all the stress and coming back to the gym. I'm glad I came back to the gym. If I didn't I think I would go mentally ill. Meeting new people and listen to their stories is really an eye opener. How low their confident was and how unhealthy they were. Plus, I even met someone who I am fond with. Even tho it's one sided, I'm happy with it. This person just gave it, hope. You could say, this person gave me motivation to be better. I like the companionship I felt when I with this person, this person gets my random perverted joke, this person is even ok with me swearing around. I wish, one day I will grow the balls to tell this person about my feeling.

I don't really have anything to blog about honestly. But I just wanna let out this feeling. So that's all for today.

xoxo  

Cry.

Sweet like honey drops,

Bitter like long black.

Innocence was stolen away,

But happiness goes on.

Build a tall wall,

Show the ugly side,

Protect one self strong,

Be selfish and heartless. 

Find the right one,

Else the wrong shall.

Don't have the will,

Build a wall again.

Lock the rose away,

For she can't love,

Longing for the one,

To cry with her.  

There are wounds that never show on the body that are deeper and more hurtful than anything that bleeds.

Dreams and internet

Lately, I have been online a little too much. My dreams is to know as much as I can and the internet fulfilled. 

I should get off the internet >.> 

Religion

I am never a hardcore believer in religion.  I go to temple, I go to Church, I don't go to the mosque because of their rules but I do have same respect toward them. I am a free thinker, for I believe there is only the heaven and only one god. Everyone have their own believes, some acceptable, some too over the top. But, I still respect that.

I respect everything for what anyone wants to believe, for matter they can't take beef, can't eat for a month, can't eat meat on Fridays, even if your religion is base on a tree; I would and still respect it. But there is one thing I dislike and that is "the believer". To me, every religion is beautiful; but claiming your religion is the best and saying another is the devil's work will bring you a bitch slap on your face by me or even a round house kick by the head.

Every religion teach us to respect one another. No matter which Christian denomination you are, which quran you read, which god or goddess you pray to; we were all though to be humble, be kind, respect your friends and enemy.

One day :)

By Zen Pencils

Unusual item used as fabric

So, I was researching about fabric online and I found some weird shit. Among all I have found the most unusual item used as fabric is Fish Mucus.

There is a creature in the ocean known as the hagfish, and it secretes mucus/slime, which it uses to slip away from predators if captured. Not technically a fish, the hagfish has been around for about 500 million years, possibly due to the benefits their slime offers. Now those benefits extend to humanity. Douglas Fudge, a researcher at the University of Guelph, and his team have isolated threads from the hagfish’s slime and documented that it’s 10 times stronger than nylon. While it’s not yet commercially available, the slime is considered a far more economical fabric than other animal byproducts.

あなたは今まであなたが現実から逃げることができるように、瀕死のように感じることがありますか？

最近、私は、人生は本当に不公平されているを見つける。

私は一生懸命働いています。私は自分のベストを尽くした。しかし...

どのくらい私が苦しむことがありますか？

Day 11 – What’s in my bag?

Sorry for the MIA. Been busy with work, holiday, cosplay and ahem. *blush*

Anyhow, I'm gonna do the 30 days challenge. ( not really challenge by now but oh well.)

 Day 11 – What’s in my bag?
I'm not going to take a picture of it, I'm shy orz..

So, I got 3 phones. One is personal, the 2nd one is for work and the last one is for well work too.
I got 2 wallet. Yes, I got 2 in my bag. Reason? One is for shopping and another is my daily use - example, Food, petrol, toilet(?),etc
1 diary, to remind me important dates and what I have to do.
1 note book, where I keep track with my work.
1 pack of wet tissue,
1 pack of candies (I always refill it when it's finish)
1 small pencil case, do I need to be a reason?
AND, lots of papers.

But honestly, during working time and hanging out I use different bags. In total I got about 3 bags OTL.

Forgotten story

Forgotten story, told by past memory.
Hands around neck,
Eyes shows madness.
Feeling tells fears,
Shortness of breath,
Panic one shall be.
Body push a painful force.
Tears drops, begging for life.
Everything was done,
The one I loved.

*This is suppose to be in Japanese, I wrote this using the Japanese way of poetry. But, I ain't confident on ma Japanese ( Sorry for if this sound racist, trying reading it in a black slang. Yup with all da fingering and shit. ) So, I kinda translate it back to English. Maybe one day it will be on Japanese.

5 creepy Video games

Another random post~

Saw a post about creepy video games and went to google it and found 5 of it.

5) Killswitch

Killswitch is a game that was supposedly created by Soviet gaming company Karvina Corporation in 1989. Only limited copies of the game were produced (between 5,000 to 10,000 copies) and it was very popular among Soviet gamers. The game itself was a pioneer in the survival horror theme. You had to choose between two characters, a girl or an invisible demon. The goal of the game was to navigate through an abandoned coal mine while battling demons and coal monsters. As it was hard to navigate the game with an invisible character, a lot of people choose to complete the game with the girl character. But sadly, No one ever completed the game with the demon, because upon beating the game all trace of it would be erased from your hard drive.From forums and sites said that in 2005, an unopened copy of the self-deleting game surfaced on Ebay where it was promptly bought for $733,000 by a man from Japan named Yamamoto Ryuichi. Ryichi had planned to document his play through of the game on YouTube. The only video Ryuchi posted was of him staring at his computer screen and crying. Not too sure how true is this.

4)Squall Is Dead

Final Fantasy VII and VIII are the two primary reasons for the mid and late 20's will never be able to play a FF game without being disappointed, because nothing can compare to them. Those two games were ahead of their time and featured a handful of memorable characters. Squall is one of those memorable characters. He is the main character in FF VIII, and much like the “Paul is dead” conspiracy theory about The Beatles, there are many who believe that Squall is dead as well.At the end of disc one, Squall is impaled by an ice shard while fighting one of the games main bosses, Edea. Squall awakens at the beginning of disc two with no wounds at all from the battle and no one ever brings up that Squall was killed. It is also at this point when the game goes from being a fairly realistic fantasy game to being an over the top, fantasy where all realism goes out the window. I mean a good portion of the plot takes place in outer space. It is believed that Squall actually dies from his wounds that he suffers during his fight with Edea at the end of disc one. The rest of the game is simply a dream Squall is having as he passes away. This would explain why the game has such a surrealist tone after disc one. It would also explain the collage of images we see at the end of the game as Squall’s life flashes before his eyes. Among those images is a shot of Squall without a face which just adds the weird creepy feeling.

3) Lavender Town Syndrome

Back in 1996 the Pokemon Red and Green video games delighted Gameboy owners all over the world. Well, except for in one part of the world.The game was first released in Japan and it supposedly correlated with a huge spike in suicides and illness in children ranging in age from 7 to 12. The children did not fall ill or commit suicide until reaching Lavender Town in the popular game. The game’s score was said to be the source of the sinister ailments in children. The piercing tones of the music caused headaches, nausea and eventually suicidal tendencies in young children. The music in the level was changed before the game was shipped overseas. ( I didn't put a picture because I want the reader to find it yourself )

2) Fallout 3 Predicts the Future

Fallout 3 is a vast open world role playing game. Therefore, it would not be surprising to find that there are things within the game that many people have yet to discover. However, it is claimed by some that they have found something in the game that may predict the future.The story goes that the post-apocalyptic game predicts the future, in the real world, using morse code and hidden messages within the games radio station. There are stations that broadcast morse code in the game. However, some claim that you can hear a DJ on the station rambling off such cryptic phrases as “The Queen has died today. The world mourns, as on days like these we are all Brits” and “I can’t believe Britney’s actually won an Oscar!” These phrases are followed by a series of numbers in morse Code that can be interpreted as dates. Whether or not the Queen will die on March 19, 2014 remains to be seen. Bethdesa, the company that designed the game, denies that these cryptic radio stations exist. Well don't you think it's time to keep some bottle caps?

1)Polybius

The legend of Polybius is likely the oldest gaming myth and had the honor of guest starring in an episode of The Simpsons.Polybius was an arcade game that mysteriously appeared in an arcade in Portland, Oregon in the early 1980s. The cabinet was completely black except for the green joysticks and the logo at the top of the machine. The game combined elements of classic shooters like Tempest, mazes like in Pac-Man and spatial puzzles. When played, it supposedly caused all sorts of health problems including amnesia, blackouts, nausea, seizures, headaches, night terrors and, in some cases, players were reported to commit suicide not long after playing. It is also said that men dressed in all black would often be seen messing with the game leading some to speculate that the device was not a video game but a government experiment. Whether or not this insidious arcade game ever actually existed is not known.

Hobbycon Cosplay Competition!

Hobbycon Cosplay Competition is back again for the 7th year! Come and register at Hobbycon Page!

CN 1st roll: J.na , Rei Robin , Hangmen , Macoto

CN 2nd roll: Damon , Sakuya , Mcalysugar (me orz) , Mokuto Rei

CN 3rd roll: Book town , Skye , Maguro , Grey

Day 10 – A photo of my favorite place to hang-out.

Day 10 – A photo of my favorite place to hang-out.

I don't have a picture of the place I always hang out, BUT I will tell you where it is.

It's an India shop (AKA mamak store) called Taj Curry House. It's near diamond restaurant.

Well, the reason why I always hang out there because my good friend live near by so we always meet up there. That place is really special to me, that is the place where I shed my tears, told my past, mention my deepest darkest secrets, that no one ever know but only one.

That place have the best curry lamb I ever had and also their drinks are the best! Well, their maggi is good too. Me and my friend can hang out there from 9pm to 6 or 7am go home rest up and meet up at the same place to hang out again.

That place is so awesome that, I get to make 2 new friends who are total stranger to me. All I can say is that, that is very awesome.

My 1st 10km marathon.

On 25th of August was my very 1st Marathon. I joined running competition during my schooling time but to get back to the field but a longer distant, for almost 3 years of not running was pretty painful. I started training on early March, but stopped awhile because of the Suluk case in Lahad Datu. Started running again on May. I run every Tuesday and Thursday after work, rain, sun and wind. I will still run. Behind my house there is a hill and I don't know how many KM it is, but I run about an hour or 2 depending how scare I am (orz)

On Saturday, I'll join Charles (aka Duck) and my cousin go hiking at Butik Padang for a round or 2 (But I always ended up half around orz). On Sunday early morning around 4am I'll run at Butik Padang about 3 to 5 rounds, depends how tired or hungry I am.

I won't have make it without my friends giving me support and accompany me through this little adventure of mine. I'm planing to run Half Marathon next year, It's 21km! I really need to train for it! Next month I'm joining the 7k Sunset Run by Sutera, wanted to join the another run on 8th of September, but I would be in KL eating at some shop (aku suka makan)

Wasn't really happy with my time, I was aiming below 1:30 but ended up 1:36:48. The English have landed and I ran in pain. But I was able to finish it on time and I guess that's ok. (Stupid english, have to land on that day. >_> *fyi not the people english! I'm not racist! Well, I think I'm not*)

Proof I actually ran! I got medal again leee LOL

Yosh, have to gambatte for 21km next year! 

Day 9 – A photo of the item I last purchased.

I can't remember buying anything, most of my money I spend on food and cake. orz

Gomen ;_;

Really sorry for being MIA. Was getting ready for the BIM and such. Will update my blog when I got the time. And also the 30 day challenge. OTL

Day 8 – A song to match my mood.

A song I listen and sing everyday is My Way by Frank Sinatra
This song gives me hope and positive energy.

And now, the end is here
And so I face the final curtain
My friend, I'll say it clear
I'll state my case, of which I'm certain
I've lived a life that's full
I traveled each and ev'ry highway
And more, much more than this, I did it my way

Regrets, I've had a few
But then again, too few to mention
I did what I had to do and saw it through without exemption
I planned each charted course, each careful step along the byway
And more, much more than this, I did it my way

Yes, there were times, I'm sure you knew
When I bit off more than I could chew
But through it all, when there was doubt
I ate it up and spit it out
I faced it all and I stood tall and did it my way

I've loved, I've laughed and cried
I've had my fill, my share of losing
And now, as tears subside, I find it all so amusing
To think I did all that
And may I say, not in a shy way,
"Oh, no, oh, no, not me, I did it my way"

For what is a man, what has he got?
If not himself, then he has naught
To say the things he truly feels and not the words of one who kneels
The record shows I took the blows and did it my way!

Yes, it was my way

Day 7 – My Dream House

My dream house is a place I can call home.
My dream house is where I feel the safest. ( Well not if my family becomes a brain eating zombie.)
My dream house is a place where I can scream around and no one will thinks I'm crazy.
No matter is big or small. From wood or cement. Snow or stone. Glass or a tend. It doesn't matter.
My dream house is a place no matter how long I have not return, but non the less I can still say I'm home when I return.
That is my dream house.

Because I was there for you too.

I never did forget you, you were always there. A tiny part of my heart still belongs to you; the laugher, the smiles, the tears, the rage, everything. Just that time have shown me what is more important, my family, my friends, my goal and my future. I won't forget you, because I know how it feels when someone you loved so much forgets you and every single moment you have spent together. Is painful, is more painful than a sharply cutting through the soft skin of your wrist. 

The day where we will cross path, we may be stranger, a little smile and go on with our daily life or a handshake, starting small talks like " How is life?" Or maybe, I don't know. The next life? 

I have grown to be wise and confident. I have gain knowledge from what I have been through. Without you, I won't be who I am today. The laugher we shared shown me that I am never a lone, the random smile we show to each other taught me to be always kind to others, the tears I shed for you made me stronger and have more pride in myself. The rage we always had, let me understand I should accept the good and bad side of everyone who will come into my life.  

These are the reason why I won't forget you, you have taught me what I need to be a better person. To get myself ready for the cruel cruel world out there. 

I won't forget you, I never will. Because you were there for me. I hope you don't forget me. Because I was there for you too.     

Day 6 – A photo of something that makes me happy.

Day 6 – A photo of something that makes me happy.

I love cake, cake makes me happy. The taste is sweet and wonderful, it just makes all the stress go away. The cake in the picture are crepe cake from a new cake up at Lintas called Cafe De Vie, there have many different flavours and I haven't get the chance to try green tea yet. Haiz. Anyhow, I can't wait to go KL on September to try Vanilla Cakes's crepe cake. Can't wait. Yum! :P

Day 5 – A photo of my old-self.

 Day 5 a photo of my old self.

The left one was taken 2011, looks at how tired and stressed out look and I was wearing make up too. I sucked at it so bad before.

The right one was taken last Saturday (17/08/13)

Yes, both picture is me. From the looks from the picture my make up skill improve a lot and my facial skin is better too. But honestly, the most different between the 2 pictures is confident, maybe you the readers don't see it but that is what the picture is telling me. 2 years apart and I have grown up better and well prettier? (Kena slap by fish)

That night.

Early morning bird singing,
Rise it's another day,
Phone goes "ring ring"
Who might it be?

Smell of sweet alcohol,
Mix with happy laughter,
"Sorry, hi it's me."
I shiver with fear.

All eyes on me,
Worried looking ones too,
"are you free tomorrow?"
My heart fall apart.

Sweet vodka hitting me,
Drowning with tired mind,
I stood on tall,
I won't fall again.

Morning air smells dew,
Hot cup of tea,
Regrets is finally shown,
What is the reason?

Hollow eyes with tears,
Shaky fear of abuse,
Picked up the broken,
Fix it with love.

Past linger to me,
Cold wing push me,
The warm nice hug,
Kissed on my head.

Words play strong ones,
Roses can protect itself,
I was always wise,
Love made me blind.

Rumours is a virus,
Past has already written ,
Words did not shared,
It was always close.

Beautiful blue blue sky,
Where could you be?
Confident I have found,
Cause you aren't here.

 

Day 4 – My Name (In-depth).

My name is Alyssa Lee Wen Yi.

The name Alyssa means 'of noble kind.' The name is German in origin and can also mean great happiness and joy.

My Family name Lee means Plum Tree

Wen 文 means culture, literacy.

Yi 億 means Billion.

I don't really understand what it's suppose to mean. But yea, that's my name. :3

Day 3 – What is True Love?

What is true love? Well to me true love is accepting your lover, the good and the bad. I understand how loves works, it's all hormones. It is says that these hormones only last about 2 to 3 years, but those that can stay longer; well that's because of the time spend for one another, the sweet memories and many more. That is true love to me.

Day 2 – A photo of something I ate today.

What I ate today is Fish noodle with tomato soup!

It's really near my house and the shop name is How Kee. Can go there try try >w<

Sorry for the weird picture angle. 

Day 1 – Who am I & 10 facts! + Recent Photo of me.

So the 1st challage is Who am I & 10 facts! + Recent Photo of me.

Who am I?
Well, the name Alyssa Lee. I'm a December baby, I'm the youngest in my family and also the only female in my family.

So 10 facts about me.

1. I love sweets

I love eating anything sweets, but not to the point of overly sweet. I like dark chocolate not milk chocolate, I love cakes and dessert.

2. I swear a lot.

To me, everyone swears. It's a saying I heard once a long time ago, "We don't say bad words, but our heart says it all the time. So it's better to say it out loud than to say it in our heart." What's the diff with saying What the fish or what the duck? It's means the fucking same thing in our own heart. I understand really well when it's right and when it's not, and who to talk too. But during normal conversation with friends or having fun time and those people cant accept it, they got no life. Or rather yet, lying to themselves.

3. I sometime wish to be born as a boy.

I'm rude and not lady like at. I like sports and running around for no reason. I feel that I don't have anything feminine in me, but my good friend Zak said otherwise. I sometime felt that I was suppose to be born as a boy, but my mother wanted a girl so badly so therefore god gave her what she wanted and wala! I'm here.

4. I'm a sapiosexual.

Everyone have fetish, I remember one of my ex he got a thing for legs it freak the hell out of me when he kissed my leg. But anyhow, I got a fetish towards a person's intelligence. I didn't realize this till I think back about my past relationship, they were all quite intelligence. Not the genius kind but know some thing that I don't for an example, my 1st ex he knows a lot about games and he got a very creative mind, for my 2nd ex he was well an engineer, I hope that explain it? as for my 3rd one he was the most intelligence among 3 of them, the thought of marrying him actually came to mind but well it didn't work. To me, sapiosexual is like a cruse. I can't stand stupidity and ignorance. If anyone is interested in me and can't keep up on my own knowledge, I will just lost interest. No matter how rich or handsome they are, I just don't wanna brother them any more.

5. I have low self esteem

Since form 4,I know I know, I look like I'm always with full confident. But actually I went as low as despair.

6. I'm a book worm

Reading have been a stress release since I can remember. Reading books makes me feel like I can escape reality event just a few hours.

7. I swing both ways.

Yes, I like girls and boys. Problem?

8. I do cosplay

Cosplay play a small part in saving me from depression.

9. I fall into depression

Tried to suicide a couple of time but kept failing. That just made it worst and I ended up in despair, but thanks to friends and family members I got better. Love them. <3

10. I love Japan's culture.

People always mistaken me that I like Japan because of Anime. WRONG. I have been into Japan culture long before I know about Anime. To me, Japan Culture is really rich and beautiful. I too like my own race Chinese culture, but sorry to say I like Japan's more.

AND LAST. Recent Photo of me.

Don't mind the tired face, it was 3 in the morning. 

 

30 days challenges.

I saw a friend who try doing it but fail. So I guess I will give it a try. :3

Day 1 – Who am I & 10 facts! + Recent Photo of me.
Day 2 – A photo of something I ate today.
Day 3 – What is True Love?
Day 4 – My Name (In-depth).
Day 5 – A photo of my old-self.
Day 6 – A photo of something that makes me happy.
Day 7 – My Dream House
Day 8 – A song to match my mood.
Day 9 – A photo of the item I last purchased.
Day 10 – A photo of my favorite place to hang-out.
Day 11 – What’s in my bag?
Day 12 – A City I am currently live in.
Day 13 – Goals?
Day 14 – My Favourite Quote
Day 15 – Something I don’t leave the house without.
Day 16 – My Dream Car.
Day 17 – Something I am looking forward to.
Day 18 – Something I crave a lot.
Day 19 – Something I miss a lot.
Day 20 – Nicknames.
Day 21 – Favourite picture of myself OF ALL TIME, Why?
Day 22 – Someone who has hurt me.
Day 23 – Something I've learnt..
Day 24 – Song that I’m currently addicted.
Day 25 – What’s in my wallet?
Day 26 – My Ideal Husband.
Day 27 – A picture of me last year and now and how have I changed since then?
Day 28 – My favorite movie of all time.
Day 29 – Something you could never get tired of doing.
Day 30 – A photograph of myself today + three good things that have happened in the past 30 days

Is not that easy.

Sometimes, when people are sad, nothing can really bring them back up right away. Not words, not good advice, or even the people around them trying to make them happy can't make them happy just like that. We should never tell someone to just be happy and forget about what's holding them down because we're not dealing with the pain in their heart. It takes time and patience for someone to get back up. It's not that easy.

Photo credit to my friend Locksley. You can check out his FB for more picture.

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Don't Judge Others Because They Sin Differently Than You.

Sorry for being "mia" for some time, was really busy with work and "ahem" *blush* lol

But today I'm going to post about my very own point of view. Lately I have been hanging out with a different group of friends, who kinda messed up in life. Let me elaborate what I meant as messed up,those people are the ones you called a "bad" person. Those you judge at 1st glare, because they smokes, drinks, have lots of tattoo and etc.. I understand that doing all these isn't good, more like a sin. They didn't finish high school, got knocked up at 16 years old.

Everyone makes mistake, me, you, them, everyone. But the mistake we make is just different. So what makes you have the right to judge them for their mistake or sin? You too do sin. Just different or maybe more accepted for sociality. That's how fucked up sociality is. A mistake, is still a mistake. A sin is still a sin.

I intend to love you for the longest time.

I remember the goodbye that night
The music left me without a word
What else could I do, I was so naive
And it seems like a far away dream.

Once I thought my innocence was gone
But I know that happiness goes on
That's when you found me,
When you put your arms around me

Maybe this won't last very long
But you feel so right
And I know this is wrong
Maybe I've been hoping too hard.

Who knows how much further we'll go on.
Maybe old wounds will open up again
I'll take my chances, I forgot how nice romance is.
I haven't been there for the longest time.

I don't care what consequence it brings
I've been a fool for lesser things
I want you so bad, I think you got to know that
I intend to love you for the longest time.

Alyssa Lee

*Note: Love is in the air~

Words Origin: Villain.

So I came across a few words that is not that it means. What now and in the origin meaning is so way off different. I guess, I will post one word in a few days.

So the word today would be:

Villain:-

What it means now: “A person guilty or capable of a crime or wickedness.”
What it used to mean: A farm worker

Everybody, especially Batman, Superman, Iron man, etc... is familiar with the word villains. A big thanks to over half a century of movies, we all know that the word villain means bad guy. Back in the 14th century though, villains were the backbone of agriculture. That is to say, they were the people who worked on farms. The word villain is actually an old French word that pulls its roots from the word “villa” Latin for country house.Over time, the meaning of the word gradually changed: Farm workers were poor, practically peasants. Peasants, being poor, are untrustworthy. Untrustworthy people commit crimes. And eventually we ended up with the modern day definition of villain, which becomes a rich person who gets killed by James Bond.

Gruesome Disney's Fairy Tale Origins

So, yesterday. I was reading a few of disney fairy tale origin and google it's history.

5. Pinocchio

Original: Pinocchio Kills the Cricket, the Fairy is a Walking, Talking Corpse and Pinocchio Dies

In the very first version of Pinocchio, the marionette is punished by death for being such a naughty boy. Pinocchio teases Gepetto mercilessly and runs away, Gepetto chases him but is caught by a police officer who throws the old man in prison, believing he is abusing the puppet. When Pinocchio returns to Gepetto’s house he meets a hundred year old cricket who tells him naughty boys turn into donkeys. Pinocchio throws a hammer at the cricket and kills it. Pinocchio ends up also getting burned, he then bites off an evil cat’s paw and meets a beautiful blue haired fairy who tells him she is dead and waiting for people to take her body away. Pinocchio then gets hung from a tree by the cat with the mutilated paw and the cat’s companion the fox, and they watch as Pinocchio suffocates to death. The End.

The editors weren’t too happy with this ending, so the author added a second part to the story. Here, the beautiful dead fairy rescues Pinocchio and they start living together, but Pinocchio takes up his wicked ways again and eventually turns into a donkey. He is sold to the circus, where he goes lame. Pinocchio is then brought by a musician, who desires to kill him, skin him, and turn him into a drumhead. The musician ties rocks to the donkey’s neck and lowers him into the ocean to drown. As he drowns, fish eat the flesh off his bones, and the wooden marionette skeleton is left. Pinocchio swims away, but is swallowed by a giant shark, in whose stomach he finds Gepetto sitting at a table trying to eat live fish which keep wriggling out of his mouth. After they escape, Pinocchio busies himself with caring for Gepetto, and eventually as a reward for being a good lad, looking after his father and working hard, he is rewarded by being turned into a real boy.

4 Cinderella

Original: Cinderella Kills Her Step-Mother

The Grimm’s version of Cinderella, where the Prince spreads tar on the palace steps in the hopes that Cinderella will get stuck as she tries to run away. His plan fails, however only her shoe is left sticking in the tar. Her sisters, who are “beautiful but cruel” both attempt to fool the Prince into marrying one of them. One sister scut off her big toe so that she can fit into the slipper, and the other cut off her own heel. Their evil deeds got found out when Cinderella’s enchanted birds point out the blood on their stockings to the Prince. The sister’s eyes are pecked out as punishment for their cruelty and deeds. 

Though this is an excellent version of Cinderella,  but this is not the version Disney actually based their movie on. Disney’s Cinderella was based on a very tame story by Charles Perrault, published 1697. Perrault’s version plays out almost exactly like the Disney version. However, both Perrault’s and Grimm’s versions contain elements from The Cat Cinderella, published in 1634, by Giambattista Basile. Though tame for a Basile fairy tale, it is worth noting that in this version, Cinderella confides in her seemingly kind Governess about the cruelty of her step-mother. The Governess tells Cinderella that to fix her problem she will need to kill her step-mother by slamming the lid of a large wooden chest down on her step-mothers throat, which will break her neck. Cinderella must then convince her father to marry the Governess. Cinderella kills her step-mother and the marriage goes ahead. It turns out though that the Governess was hiding her own seven beautiful daughters out of sight, and when she produces them, Cinderella’s father loses interest in his own daughter. They all start to mistreat Cinderella, abusing her and calling her names, and she is sent to the kitchens to work as a servant (she is now given the name ‘Cat Cinderella’. previously her name was Zezolla). The rest of the story carries like a traditional Cinderella tale, and actually has a happy ending all round, but it’s nice to know that Cinderella wasn’t always so innocent.

3 Sleeping Beauty.

Original: Sleeping Beauty 

In the Brothers Grimm tale of Briar Rose, a wise woman curses the baby princess so that in her fifteenth year she will prick her finger on a spindle and fall down dead. Another wise woman weakens the curse so that, instead of dying, the princess will fall asleep for a hundred years. Surely enough, in her fifteenth year, the girl pricks her finger and falls into a deathlike sleep, which quickly spreads throughout the entire kingdom until even the flies on the wall slumber. A briar hedge grows up around the castle and, over the years, hundreds of young men from faraway lands try to make their way through the brambles to ‘gaze upon’ the sleeping princess. However the brambles are so thick that the young men get trapped in the thorns and die slow miserable deaths. On the hundredth year a prince rides by and the brambles turn into flowers and open for him because the curse has finally run out. The prince finds the Sleeping Beauty and kisses her as she awaken.

As mentioned the Brothers Grimm took inspiration for Briar Rose from Sun, Moon and Talia, written by Giambattista Basile. In this tale, a king rapes the princess as she sleeps. She is impregnated and gives birth to twins. One of the babies sucks the enchanted splinter from beneath her fingernail and she awakens. The queen attempts to have the babies slaughtered and fed to their father, and attempts to burn Talia alive, but the king saves the day just in time, the queen is burned in Talia’s place, and they all live happily ever after.

2 Little Mermaid

Original: The Little Mermaid Kills the Prince

In the Hans Christian Andersen story that Disney based their movie on, the little mermaids tongue is cut out. She has to live in horrific pain and her feet bleed all the time, but the prince marries another woman anyway. The little mermaid has a choice; she can kill the prince and turn back into a mermaid, or throw herself into the ocean and die. Unable to kill the prince, she commits suicide.

1 Pocahontas

Original: Pocahontas was Kidnaped, Raped and Murdered

The two Disney movies about the curvaceous, scantily-clad Native Indian beauty are based on sterilized and falsified English accounts of the early history of the Virginia Colony. Pocahontas was only around ten years old when Smith first made contact with the Powhetans. It is true that he was captured by the tribe, but in his original account of the event Smith relates that he was treated very kindly. It wasn’t until many years later, when Pocahontas’s name became known in England, that Smith fabricated the story about her rescuing him from execution.

When Pocahontas was seventeen, she was captured by the English and held for ransom. Her husband Kokoum was killed and Pocahontas was raped repeatedly and consequently impregnated. She was forcefully converted to Christianity, baptized Rebecca, and quickly married off to an English tobacco farmer named John Rolfe to make the pregnancy appear legitimate. In 1615 the Rolfe’s travelled to England and Pocahontas was laced into a corset and presented to the public as a ‘symbol of the tamed Virginia savage’.

After two years in England the Rolfe’s had begun their journey home to Virginia when Pocahontas suddenly started to vomit violently after dinner, she then began to convulse. Before they had even sailed off the river Thames Pocahontas had died, horribly and painfully. English historical accounts are ‘unsure of the cause of death’, speculating that she may have succumbed to pneumonia, tuberculosis, or even smallpox. However, in their book The True Story of Pocahontas; The Other Side of History Linwood Custalow and Angela L. Daniel postulate that during her time in England, Pocahontas learned of the English intentions to obliterate the Native Indian Tribes and forcefully take their lands. Afraid that Pocahontas might reveal their political strategies, her murder was swiftly plotted and she was poisoned before she could reach home and report what she had learned. Pocahontas was only twenty-two years old when she died.

*note*

I found about 15 of it. but I will post it up another time. That's all for tonight. Good night. 

Beijing 2008

 Today, I happened to cross this picture on Facebook, the erotic and the beautiful body caught my eyes and I just have to read it. This is a oil painting, titled "Beijing 2008", drawn by Liu Yi (劉湓), a Chinese living in Canada. This painting has been drawing a lot of attention and becoming controversial on the Internet. Being a curious person , I googled it both it. And it seems that it's very popular in China and Taiwan. The painting basically is showing 4 ladies playing MahJong (A kind of Chinese game) and a little girl serving fruits. 

So from what I have read and to my understanding. The lady facing her back with the tattoo is China. On the left, focused on the game, is Japan. The one with the shirt, opposite China is America. Lying provocatively on the floor is Russia. And the little girl standing to the side is Taiwan.

China’s visible set of tiles “East Wind” means that China has control most of the East side of the world. On another hand, China appears to be in a good position, but we cannot see the rest of her hand so we don't know if she is winning or losing. Additionally, she is also handling some hidden tiles below the table.

America looks confident, but is glancing at Taiwan, trying to find something off of Taiwan’s expression, and at the same time seems to be hinting something at Taiwan.

Russia appears to be disinterested in the game, but this is far from the truth. Being a communism country, it's understand able why she place one foot hooks coyly at America, while China being a communism country Russia is passing a hidden tile to China, this tells me that both countries can be said to be exchanging benefits in secret. But for Japan is all seriousness while staring at her own set of tiles, and is oblivious to the actions of the others in her self-focused state. This tells me that Japan doesn't know what is going around with the world. She is just too focus on her own states. 

Taiwan wears a traditional red slip, symbolizing that she is the true heir of Chinese culture and civilization. In one hand she has a bowl of fruit, and in the other, a paring knife. Her expression as she stares at China is full of anger, sadness, and hatred, but to no avail; unless she enters the game, no matter who ends up as the victor, she is doomed to a fate of serving fruit.

The four ladies' state of undress represent the situation in each country. China is naked on top, clothed with a skirt and underwear on the bottom. America wears a bra and a light jacket, but is naked on the bottom. Russia has only her underwear left. Japan has nothing left.

America appears to be most composed and seems to be the best position, as all the others are in various states of nakedness. However, while America may look radiant, her vulnerability has already been exposed. This tells me that America can offer a lot but she have showed all her secrets to the world. While China and Russia may look naked, yet their private parts remain hidden. It shows that they can't offer much to the world and they have hidden their secrets.

If the stakes of this game is that the loser strips off a piece of clothing, then if China loses, she will be in the same state as Russia (similar to when the USSR dissolved). If America loses, she also ends up in the same state as Russia. If Russia loses, she loses all. Japan has already lost everything.

America may look like she is in the best position, but in fact is in a lot of danger, if she loses this round, she will give up her position as a world power. Russia is the most sinister, playing along with both sides, much like when China was de-occupied, she leaned towards the USSR and then towards America; as she did not have the ability to survive on her own, she had to weave between both sides in order to survive and develop.

There are too many of China’s tiles that we cannot see. Perhaps it's showing that China has several hidden aces? Additionally China is also exchanging tiles with Russia, while America can only guess from Taiwan’s expression of what actions have transpired between Russia and China or America is being a busybody thinking why Taiwan is looking at China that way. Japan on the other hand is completely oblivious, still focused solely on her own set of tiles.

Taiwan stares coldly at the game from aside. She sees everything that the players at the table are doing, she understands everything that is going on. But she doesn't have the right or permission to join the game, she isn't even given the right to speak. Even if she has a dearth of complaints, she cannot voice it to anyone, all she can do is to be a good page girl, and bring fresh fruit to the victor. 

The final victor lies between China and America, this much is apparent. But look closely; while America is capable, they are playing Chinese Mahjong, not Western Poker. Playing by the rules of China, how much chance at victory does America really have?

Time.

I notice that lately, I have been wishing and hoping for more "time". I just feel that 24 hours isn't enough. There is just so many things I need to do. I know the saying goes "make time" but how can I make time when I don't even have time to be made? I bet a few of you will be saying "stop blogging and go do your stuff." Well, blogging is one of the things I need to do. But not matter how hard I wish for more time, it wouldn't be given to me. After all, time is priceless. But than again, I wish I could clone myself so I can multitask everything.

Kaamatan Party and Ambush mission.

On last Saturday, I was invited to my boss's kaamatan party. It was held at Larry & Vince’s Farmstay. It's located at somewhere around Inanam. It started at 8am but I went there around 10am. The organizer also organize some games to play. There were fishing, beer drinking competition, singing, etc... Met lots of people there. Was really fun and it's funny when you actually listen to drunk old uncle talking. It's like, they are talking about happy moment, then sad than to some random BS talking. I don't have much to say but maybe the picture will tell you?

LAMB 

A place for drinking and singing

He caught the fish less than a min

Fishing competition begins!

That's Larry, the owner of the farmstay.

The place you can stay.

An owl!

A path to go up the hill

Beer drinking Competition.

I went back home at about 5pm and yes, they're still drinking and singing. You can check out the Farmstay website <Click here>

After that, I went to Suria to meet up with the ClickStartPlay members for an ambush surprise B'day for fellow member of CSP and a committee of HC Max. He is a fan of Monster hunter so his girlfriend wanted to give him a Felyne cake. And tada~ Cake was made by Unique Bakez, can check out their FB for more awesome cakes <Click here>  

So that's all for now. Good night!

The attack of the Haze.

On 19th June, smoke from illegal open fire from Indonesia blowing toward southern Malaysia and Singapore, causing thick clouds of haze. The range of PSI are according
0 - 50 Good,
51 - 100 Moderate
101 - 200 Unhealthy
201 - 300 Very unhealthy
Above 300 Hazardous

 At 11 a.m. on 21 June 2013(today), Singapore got the worst out of it, with a PSI of 400 in the "Hazardous" range. While Johor Bahru gotten a PSI of 219 on 20 June 2013(yesterday)  And Today, Malaca City gotten  a PSI of 271 at 5pm.

For Kota Kinabalu the PSI of 75 which makes us in the Moderate state.

Lets just hope that it will rain soon, so the haze will somehow go away. But for the time being, remember to wear a mask and sun glasses to protect yourself like these fellow Sabahan.

The Original 3 

(Sotong, Pedo and Dark Vader)

You can check out their awesome facebook profile. 

Pedo <Click here>

Sotong <Click here>

Dark Vader <Click here>

While this me being random and shit. 

That's all for tonight. Good night!

HC Maid Search

Yes! you read that right. Hobbycon is having a Maid Search. So do you think you got what it takes to be a The perfect Maid?

Come and register here! <Click here>

WAIT there's more!

We are looking for 2 potential cute HobbyCon 2013: Fuwa Fuwa Time Maid Cafe "BUTLERS" to VOLUNTEER in taking care of the maids during HobbyCon 2013. Butlers will need to receive the patrons at the entrance/waiting area of the Maid Cafe. More instructions will be given IF you are cute, effective, humble and responsible enough to be selected. Please PM Aya Nina <Click here> your name, phone number and your photo in black coat and pants with white colared shirt inside. Meal will be provided :) Arigatou! ♥

HC2013 Countdown Art

Hobbycon 2013

Status: CONFIRMED

Date: 14 & 15 December 2013
Venue: Likas Sports Complex, Kota Kinabalu

This year would be bigger and better! We will have activities which will be held before the event, so if you're up for it come and join!
Here are the event that have been confirm.

 HC2013 Countdown Art


Inspired by Comic Fiesta 100 days countdown, HobbyCon 2013 will have its own 60 days art countdown and those who submitted and chosen will be featured in this forum, facebook as well as in website.

Top 12 artwork will be featured in HobbyCon 2013 Calender Merchandise with of course, Your name and your website / blog so that you are properly credited. You'll also get a copy of the calendar

Bookings of slots will only open in 1st June 2013 till August 31st. (So start planning)
Artwork submission deadline is on 31st September 2013.


Submission Guidelines:

1) Size: A4 (2480px X 3508px // 21cm X 29.7cm // landscape or portrait) , coloured, 300dpi resolution and in JPEG high quality format

2) Save your artwork according to this format: Day*SlotNumber*By*ArtistName* (e.g. Day30ByMagion)

3) Your ORIGINAL artwork must be related to HobbyCon and definitely must be done by you.

4) You can book maximum 1 slot from Day 60 to Day 1, which is based on first come, first-served basis  e.g. If you choose "Day 8", it will signify that there is 8 days left till HobbyCon. Once booked, you have to be committed and not allowed to change. All names/slots booked will be displayed here.

5) Bookings of slot should only be made in this forum and in this thread. If you want to book, type "Nickname_Day(#)" e.g. Magion_Day30 from 1st June - 31st July 2013.. Again, FIRST COME FIRST SERVED.

6) Please be responsible. We will not remind you your deadline. If you don't submit in time (31st August 2013), your artwork will not be published in any of our online medias.

7) Email your submission to contact@hobbycon.my by 31st August 2013 and please include your following details when submitting your artwork. We will only display your Nickname and Personal Site for the public to see. The rest are strictly for contact purposes only.

    i) Full Name (Follow NRIC/Passport)
    ii) Nickname (Work will be credited with this name)
    iii) Age
    iv) Gender
    v) Email
    vi) Website or gallery, eg: Deviantart (If you don't have any, it's fine)
    vii) Mobile Contact Number

8 ) NO Foul Language, NO Hentai, Yaoi, and Yuri or whatever related to 18++. Keep in mind your artwork will be posted in a public website, so respect your art and yourself.

9) Submission Deadline is 31st August 2013.

10) Artworks not meeting the requirements above will be forfeited and our decision is final.

11) You give HobbyCon full, non-exclusive rights to use your submission on materials published by us. You still retain full ownership of the artwork.



Art work Guidelines:

1) Artwork must be based on HobbyCon Mascot, Adam & Eve. For your information, Adam and Eve will be HC permanent mascot starting 2012. Their personality details will be up soon.

2) You will need to put the DAY of your choice from Day 30 to Day 1 in your artwork. You can choose to put the word 'day' or not, as long as the number is clear AND at least ONE of these word(s): "HobbyCon 2013" / "HC2013" / "7th & 8th Dec". It's up to you if you want to put more or all.

3) Submit 2 artwork. One is with the word in instruction number 2, another is WITHOUT any words/dates/numbers (just in case you are selected to be in HC 2013 calendar)

4) You may include your artist signature on your artwork.


Note:

-Please Book your date in Hobbycon Forum. <Click here>
- HC Organisers deserves the right to amend any guidelines / rules at anytime.
- We may add more artwork/days to 60 days or even 100 days instead of 30 days if this project is well received from the crowd.
- Suggestions are welcome, but no spamming
(All by Aya Nina)

This is Eve

This is Adam

Both of the mascot are design by Magion.

You can check out his art work in his FB <Click here>

That's all for now, I got another post for HC but I will post it up in another post. Because I feel this post is getting a little too long. 

UPDATE (25/06/2013)


Characteristics / Traits:-

ADAM
-Adam's bloodline is meant serve and protect the king. The king has passed away now is serving the princess.
-A gamer.
-Brave, random & cares about his outlook all the time.
-Charges head first into anything he does.
-Loves a challenge and sometimes end up taking up task more then he can handle (and ends up getting saved by Eve) :P
-Kind hearted person.
-Loves big guns, big swords, big armor, big, big, BIG~!!!

EVE
-Comes from a royal family
-Tries to be lady-like but becomes tomboyish when annoyed.
-Witty, kind, smart & a master tactician.
-A great master of disguise (can be mistaken for other "characters")
-A great singer
-Loves high tech machines and gadgets.
-Knows a little magic but prefers not to use it.
-Loves to dance

And you can register it here <Click here>

Nothing more, nothing less. 

Joy~

Tears of joy is what I have now. For most of you who are my friends in FB you guys would know I was admitted to the hospital for having stomach ulcer. But, I'm well now. I should really remember to eat. Anyhow, the reason I am happy is I was able to finish a story I have been working on since form 4 (16 years  old) With the time off from work, I had some free time. Yay! Maybe, now I should draw a manga out from it? That be a very good challenge. Anyhow, I also took time to watch this movie called " The legend of the Fist: The Return of Chen Zhen."

Legend of the Fist: The Return of Chen Zhen is set in the period before the Second Sino-Japanese War. It was held around WW1.

I won't post up my point of view towards this movie because it might offend someone people. But anyhow, if you hunger for knowledge you can pm me or watch the movie. Oh and one of the actress is my fav, Shu qi!

Believe it or not, Shu Qi should to be a porn star. And now? She is an actress, singer and model. I guess sometimes, you need to work some shitty job to get what you really want..
And last! A beautiful song by her.




Thats all for tonight.

お休みなさい！！

晚安！！
Good night!!

legacy

I wonder what people will say about me when I’m finally gone. How many people will reminisce about me? How many people will miss me? I wonder how people would remember me for the person I was. Heck, I even wonder how many people would even notice I was gone once that last breath is taken. Don’t you ever think about it?

I think we all hope that by the time death welcomes us, our life will of meant something….anything. That we will have impacted at least one person in this world or made some sort of difference that made us being here significant. That being on this earth was not useless - that we were not useless. I think that’s why most of us feel lost most of the time; Because we want to find greatness so we could mean something other than just a forgotten face in history. But I have this funny feeling that we will never know how much we impacted this world, that we don’t even realize how many people we have affected in our lifetime.

But it would be nice to have some sense of what our legacy would one day be. By how being part of one persons life, even for a second, changed the course of their life. How making someone smile meant something to them. How you inspired someone or how your friendships with people really did mean something. And I wonder, when the last time someone utters your name and you’re truly gone, if the difference we have made in this world will still matter.

にゃ～～

今晩は！私は変態です！！ｗｗｗｗ

そしてここでは、パンダの絵だ。〜(￣△￣〜) (〜￣△￣)〜

パンダはかわいいです！！

私のブログを読んでいただきありがとうございます！ (≧∇≦)/

お休みなさい！ (。･д･)ﾉﾞ

夢が叶うん

 ♥

How cruel this world can be, but at the same time how beautiful it can be.

Something came to mind today, everything in life seem so different now. I remember when I was younger, I wanted to get married at the age of 21. So when I was 16 years old, I was kinda scare that no one would actually love me. But look at me now? I'm going to be 20 on December and I'm still single. The thought of wanting to get married at 21 just disappear. I also remember when I was younger, I wanted to be a florist because I like flower, but soon after I want to be a baker because I used to bake with my mother. But when I finished high school, reality hit me and I started to get scare of what my future would be. I wanted to go study, but I couldn't get a loan from the government. So, the studies idea just drop. But with lots of up and down. I get to be where I am today.

What I'm trying to say is, sometimes what we dreamed of having/be when we were younger, don't really come up to be when we grow up. At some age when you hit mid 20's or early 30's some even before 20's you will realize how cruel this world can be, but at the same time how beautiful it can be.

Make up!

So, a friend of mine showed me her old and now pic of her skin and make up skill. So I guess I show mine too :)

Before:(Skin)
Oh god why! At that time I have horrible skin. Pimples and blackheads everywhere! You can see how oily my face is at that time!Oh and look at that stress out face too!

Now: (Skin)

Now I take very good care of my skin and health. But because I'm working and staying up late because of work, I get eye bags and also the stress out look(Not as bad as last time laa). And don't mind the uneven bangs, I couldn't stand the length so I cut it myself because my hair stylish wasn't in town. :( 

Before:(make up)

This was taken mid last year for a friend's wedding. And Damn, my make up skill was bad. I couldn't even draw a proper eye liner. 

Now: (make up)

BAM, now I look like some bishie! As you can see, I have a wide nose and long face. I used to hate these two flaws the most, but after playing around with make up and talking to professional make up artists. I came to love my flaws. Instead of hating them, I should use them as my advantage. With some skill, I can make my nose look like I have a higher bridge. And with my long face, I can cosplay as a boy! And if I wanna cosplay as a girl with round cute face with the power of make up, it can be done so!

(P.S I was doing a costest for Okita Sogo from the anime Gintama)

Anyhow, that is all :)

Good night. xoxo :)