Forgotten face

There are faces that have been long forgotten in a memory that is slowly fading away. Somewhere in between of getting caught up in focusing on what is presently in my life to where my life is going, Time was able to cunningly robbed me of the memories of the past that I once knew so well.

Though the memories of my best friends are forever ingrained in mind, what saddens me is all those other faces that were there in elementary, junior high, and high school that have now become blurs; becoming strangers of which I even question the existence of. People that I had conversations with, saw almost everyday of my youth, and even considered as my friends vanished with almost no trace of evidence left behind to reveal that they were once part of my life.

I understand it’s natural to drift away from people and it’s difficult to remain in communication with everyone you ever met - but I still find it bothersome knowing that I was once part of a persons life that I may not even give a second glance to if I passed them on the street. I wonder what happened to everyone once we all went on our separate ways from being kids to adults now. If they have kids and family now, what jobs they have, to if they are similar to the person I once knew so many years ago. It’s even depressing to think how it’s possible that some of us could of went through unimaginable tribulations or may no longer be here anymore.

It’s like reading the beginnings of the novels of these forgotten faces only to misplace the book and be forever curious how their stories turned out. In a way, i just want to know that everyone is okay.

Recipe fail?

So, today I tried out the cheese cake I made and it was bad! My brother and friends said it was alright, but it's not. The cheese was too sticky and soft and the cookie was too soft for my liking. Thinking the ratio of the cream and cheese wasn't right, but from my knowledge the ratio would be alright, maybe it's something else? I didn't beat the cream well? Or I didn't press the cookie hard? I don't know. Tomorrow is Saturday, I think I have free time after my morning run and I think I can finish another cake before my class start. Which start at 1pm. I think I can do it. And again, if it turn out alright, I'll share my recipe :)

I made Cheese cake!

So, today I have some time off and I made cheese cake to get rid of the negative energy that I have been collecting lately. Anyhow, hope it turn out alright.

A very simple cheese cake. I used my own recipe so not sure if it would taste alright, if it's good, maybe just maybe I would share out the recipe. :)

A change of plans?

A few post ago, I mention that I want to go to Japan to study. Well, I still want to, but because of some miscalculation and unpredicted event I have to postpone to 2015. So, I still got 2 more year to spend in my home! yay!

Honestly, not too happy about that OTL

Hope

I understand that this world we live in can be a cruel, depressing, and unjust place. I’m aware that at this moment, someone is freezing as they are living on the streets with no place to call home. There is someone who is getting bullied for being gay, ‘fat’, or a ‘nerd’ as ignorance gets the better of men. There are people fighting depression beneath a mask of a smile as their screams for help go unheard. So is it wrong that I still have so much hope for this world and the people in it?

To be honest, I can’t blame those who have lost hope in humanity. We live in society where it’s easy to look into a newspaper or turn on a television set and see that murder, rape, and abuse is all too common. And in our lives, we suffer through these tragedies that break us and our faith. Sometimes, we even see these monsters when we look into a mirror, realizing that it has made a home in you. You feel like you’re part of this unfair place where you’re a chained prisoner surrounded by an inescapable darkness.

So why do I still have hope? Maybe it’s because I don’t think so many people would be sadden or bothered by it if they didn’t have this feeling there is better out there. That life is not suppose to be this cruel, and we will never find this better life if we stop trying. And amidst all the darkness that you try to escape from, you realize there are many people with you trying to fight it too. That good people still exist in this world. That you’re not alone.