Now a days, I don't have time to read any books or do some baking. Whenever I'm off work, I hit myself to the gym to release the stress from the day. I'm still amaze how I can carry a 20KG weight and did a 12KG kettlebell swing for 1 min, after stopping working out with weight for over a year. I'm taking boxing and Muay Thai back too, my moves are rusty as hell.

But all from all, with all the stress and coming back to the gym. I'm glad I came back to the gym. If I didn't I think I would go mentally ill. Meeting new people and listen to their stories is really an eye opener. How low their confident was and how unhealthy they were. Plus, I even met someone who I am fond with. Even tho it's one sided, I'm happy with it. This person just gave it, hope. You could say, this person gave me motivation to be better. I like the companionship I felt when I with this person, this person gets my random perverted joke, this person is even ok with me swearing around. I wish, one day I will grow the balls to tell this person about my feeling.

I don't really have anything to blog about honestly. But I just wanna let out this feeling. So that's all for today.

xoxo  

Cry.

Sweet like honey drops,

Bitter like long black.

Innocence was stolen away,

But happiness goes on.

Build a tall wall,

Show the ugly side,

Protect one self strong,

Be selfish and heartless. 

Find the right one,

Else the wrong shall.

Don't have the will,

Build a wall again.

Lock the rose away,

For she can't love,

Longing for the one,

To cry with her.  

There are wounds that never show on the body that are deeper and more hurtful than anything that bleeds.