Mister Blue.

You're sick, Mister Blue.
Because I know you best.
I don't care if they hate me, so long as you can remember me.

Beat me with those dirty hands,
Betray me so much till I cannot feel pan.
Hurt me with pretty lies,
Hold me till I say "I love you"

*note*

A friend just broke up. Her ex-lover was... I don't know what's the right word for it. Bad? No no, worst than that. He is a liar, he lies to everyone and everyone believes him. He made her pregnant. And beat her up till she needed an abortion. She run away from home when she found out she was having his child; she can't go back home now. Even he have hurt her so much, he didn't gave her anything but only pain. Lie to her over and over again, hurt her over and over again. But she still can say she loved him and still dose. She is so young, only 18. I somehow see myself in her. I pity her, maybe I just pity myself.   

Hetalia.

I have been a big fan of Hetalia for almost 4 years. Because of this anime, I get to pass history exam orz. 

So anyhow, just a random post. Found many beautiful fan-art from the internet. How you guys enjoy as much as I do while looking at these pictures.

England and her Majesty Elizabeth II

America and George Washington 

Char with the head of their country's map.

Germany and Italy during WW1. Their uniform are base on the real uniform used during WW1. but than again, there are some changes to it. 

Looking back at it all.

I’m sure that one day we will all look back at it all. We will read old conversations we once had that are tucked away in messages and emails that were unopened for years, look at pictures that were taken at forgotten places and with forgotten people we were once friends with, and see things that we once wrote for ourselves in privacy that exposed what our deepest thoughts and feelings were. And in the process of it all, we slowly will be reacquainting ourselves to a stranger that once was us years ago as memories that you thought were forever lost come flooding back.

I guarantee that we will cry missing how youthful we once were, missing people that were such a big part of our lives that we drifted away from, and missing just how different life use to be. We will laugh at old conversations with friends that are filled inside jokes, stories, and crushes you once experienced. We will smile at how far we have come and forgotten memories of what once was the greatest times of your life.

One day, we will remember all this all over again. Reading the very first few chapters of our lives that can no longer be edited.

My direction in life ( not one direction ah.. there are gay =_=)

Just another small update before I hit the hay. I just finished my morning jog and I'm dead tired. So anyway, a few days ago a friend who is facing depression asked me "how did you over come your depression? I don't like feeling like this at all." It took me awhile to answer her, but my answer was my direction in life. And I wrote a note for her to keep up and this is it.


1. Keep a journal where you record all your different thoughts, feelings and ideas. Look for patterns and consistency – ideas that grab you and get stronger over time.

2. Explore new passions, interests and hobbies. Some of those will stick and intensify; others will slowly fade and disappear.

3. Step outside your comfort zone and try and break with your old routine. That will lead you in different directions, release creative thoughts, and spark some fresh ideas.

4. Talk to people to get different perspectives, and listen to their feedback, and points of view.

5. Have the self-confidence to listen to your heart, and work of developing your creativity.

6. Review your current goals – and how much they mean to you. Ask yourself: Do you still feel motivated, energized and inspired?

7. Surround yourself with people who are optimistic, positive, affirming, and who want the best for you. Also, it may help to widen your circle of friends as that helps to uncover different aspects of yourself.

But in the end. What inspired me the most are the people I have met. Everyday I meet new people, while working, at convention or even when I do my morning jog. That's what inspired me the most.

Just a little update

Just a little update. I have been very busy with work and for Chinese New Year too. I was so busy till to the point of forgetting to read my phone message. Anyhow, I was scrolling on FB a few days ago and I came to saw this picture. 

                             

I find it very true. I may not hold any feelings for him anymore. But I still tend to ask myself how is he doing and so on. Maybe deep down somewhere in my heart, I still love him but not as much as before.