My cruse.

Please, stop telling me that my ability is a gift. I find it as a cruse. I'm only 19 and I got the mind of a 30 year old. How is that a gift? Having so many ideas and ambitions but no money. I may have all the knowledge that a 30 year old should have. But it makes me feel not young. Do you know how lonely is it when you don't have friends that you around the same age as you? It feels very lonely. Most of my friends are in their late 20's to late 40's. Because? Of my cruse. When ever I talk to people who are older than me, when I correct them. They won't admit it and start saying that I'm still a kid and I shouldn't be knowing these kind of things yet. Do you know how tiring that is? When you have a brain of a 30 year old, the knowledge of a 30 year but always being told as a kid. A child. But when I talk to people around my age, they will say that I'm too old for them. I get sick when I talk to people my age and when I have to lower my level just so I can talk to them and I get very angry when I talk to older people. But in the end, no matter how old my brain is, I'm still a 19 year old girl.   

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When I walk towards the light, all I see are fists fight and piano singing along.
And I found myself with a bottle of vodka drinking happily. I make no sense but I'm sad but yet happy.
I hate the night and I hate the morning. Thank the heaven I can see another day.
Sometime I wish I stop caring, but I be a heartless bitch.

Sorry but I need to go, but who the fuck would want to die alone?
Lying is the most fun a girl can do without going naked, after all everyone loves a big fat lie.
You think passing a fucking exam would make me happy? You don't know me.
Alright guys, this is war. Win or lose, we still wake up.

P.S: So, I have no idea what is this that I have done. Random thought have been running around my head and this what came out.