Wild world

Lyrics:


Now that I've lost everything to you
You say you wanna start something new
And it's breaking my heart you're leaving
Baby, I'm grieving
But if you wanna leave, take good care

I hope you have a lot of nice things to wear
But then a lot of nice things turn bad out there
Oh, baby, baby, it's a wild world
It's hard to get by just upon a smile
Oh, baby, baby, it's a wild world
I'll always remember you like a child, girl

You know I've seen a lot of what the world can do
And it's breaking my heart in two
Because I never wanna see you a sad girl
Don't be a bad girl
But if you wanna leave, take good care
I hope you make a lot of nice friends out there

But just remember there's a lot of bad and beware
Baby, I love you
But if you wanna leave, take good care
I hope you make a lot of nice friends out there
But just remember there's a lot of bad and beware

Note: Today, I feel a little blue and I kept on thinking about someone from the past. I asked myself " What is he doing now?", "Is he well?" , "Is he eating?", "Is he treating his new lover better?" and etc...
I don't know if he will read this or does he even know this blog is even here. So anyhow, this song is for him.  I hope he is taking good care of himself.

"A desired."

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The sweet smell of after rain,
Like honeydew mix with the littlest sour.
The sweet salty smells of his,
Lingers around the rooms.

Those dark shadows walking around the room,
Like a ghost, lost of it's way.
Tinkering his touch,
Like sweet cloud nine.

Thick lips with mixture of whiskey,
Lips so kissable,
Thinking it was a sin.
Loving it was lust.

Time was ticking for it was gold,
Leaving the stress away,
Time was gone,
Leaving only a dream.


P.s : A work my friend and I did a few month back, about last year around November. At that time, I was longing for a companion. And a way to express my feelings. I dare say it's a pretty well done work. It doesn't sound that sexual, but if you have a crazy mind like mine, let your wildest dream play with the words. :) I still haven't give this a title, but I guess I give it a temporary title "A desired." Sound pretty good. My friend said, we might need to fix it up. For it doesn't give out the message, I guess I have to agree with that. Well I guess that's all for today. Good night all. xoxo~     

A little about the past.

Today, I was cleaning my room and I found some stuff that brings back a lot of memories. I found my old dairy, and I read it. It was written when I was 15 to 17. I don't write everyday, I only write when something happen or I felt sad, happy or something. 

What was written in my diary was so innocent, so naive. The feeling of being so carefree. Nothing to worry. A loving family, friends and boyfriend. I read till the end where the last page wrote " I want my old life back, please give me back everything you took from me." Reading the whole dairy makes me feel like I'm reading a story book about a girl who was a innocent and how life slowly show their true colors to her, that lead her with so much hatred. 

And when I think back, I don't know why, but I thought of Mr Ex. Than I though of a guy who I have met online, who I had feelings for, but forced myself to make him dislike me because I didn't want to hurt him with the distant. And last, I thought of my special someone. Than, I realize, I still loved them. Now, I fully understand what my special someone said, "Even if you hated him, he treated you like you're a useless thing. Broke your heart, or anything to make you hate him. After sometime have pass, when everything cool down. You realize that you still have love for him. I swear, he feels the same too." Being so innocent at that time, I asked him why? How can I still love someone who hurt me so badly?" And with confident he reply me "Because, a part of your time have been spend with him, a part of you is with him. And his with you. Therefore, no matter how much time pass, you would always have that love for him."

I didn't understand what he meant, but I just nod. Now, I finally understand. I still loved them all. Mr Ex and online guy who I used to called "My Hero". Nothing will change my love for them both. 

 

Work, Training and Food!

Today was a very tiring day. I got up early for a photo shoot at the beach today, we were suppose to get ready by 5am but ended up at 6.30am. When we reached the place, we weren't allow in. Because they are having a wedding beach party or something. So we ended up going to an abandon building and it wasn't an abandon anymore. So we all ended up in a hotel room. It was very weird when asked for a room just for a day and there were 4 men (photographer) and 2 lady (me and make up artist) We finish our shoot at about 10am and we all went back home to rest and continue tomorrow (sunday). I rested at home and chatted with some friends and at around 2pm, my brother brought me out for tides shopping.

Around 4 I went back home and got ready for training at 5pm. After training, I went to have a taste eat with some friends to Bartzar, Water Front. I give it 3.5 out of 5. But for the service I give it out 2.5 out of 5. The waiter was very kind, he said sorry for the long wait and gave us wine. So I guess I add up 0.5 mark for it.
Here are some food that we ordered. Sorry for the blurry picture! Taken by camera. Forgot to bring my baby ;___;

 Mushroom Soup

 Seafood Soup

 Lamp Chop

   Rib Eye Steak

Well that's for today~ 

xoxo

Lady Gaga - Yoü And I

I know the MV is very odd/weird/etc but to me this song is about self-love. It is to do with find every part of yourself, all your different sides and fantasies.The things which have inspired and helped you to live as who you are, and satisfying each of those parts. In the music video she plays at least six different sides of herself, showcasing their personalities. For one example of this, there is the young girl playing the piano; she seems childlike and wholesome, wearing nightgown- type attire and smiling up naively at the older Joe Calderone (I may have misspelled that, forgive me). I think she probably symbolizes LG's mid-late-teen self. She has described her upbringing as sheltered, specifically from sexuality (went to an all-girls Catholic school), and that seems to be how this character acts. And as for some of the lyrics which seem to indicate a past lover, it's instead about the aspects of her personality which she left behind. The parts of herself she forgot to please, or hadn't the chance try to because of the recent years of fame. That is how I like to think about it. I think it has a deeper message than the general opinions about her ex boyfriend. It appeals to me greatly.

Random day at the office :)

A conversation in the office.

Me: When is moon cake festival?
Leon: WTF?! When is dick head festival?!
Me: WHAT THE HELL?! Moon cake festival ba!!
YingYing: HAHHAHAHA

Another day...
Me: I want to get a book for a friend for his b'day.
Leon: WHAT?! You want to get boobs for your guy friend?!
YingYing: LEON?! WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOUR EAR?!