My 1st 10km marathon.

On 25th of August was my very 1st Marathon. I joined running competition during my schooling time but to get back to the field but a longer distant, for almost 3 years of not running was pretty painful. I started training on early March, but stopped awhile because of the Suluk case in Lahad Datu. Started running again on May. I run every Tuesday and Thursday after work, rain, sun and wind. I will still run. Behind my house there is a hill and I don't know how many KM it is, but I run about an hour or 2 depending how scare I am (orz)

On Saturday, I'll join Charles (aka Duck) and my cousin go hiking at Butik Padang for a round or 2 (But I always ended up half around orz). On Sunday early morning around 4am I'll run at Butik Padang about 3 to 5 rounds, depends how tired or hungry I am.

I won't have make it without my friends giving me support and accompany me through this little adventure of mine. I'm planing to run Half Marathon next year, It's 21km! I really need to train for it! Next month I'm joining the 7k Sunset Run by Sutera, wanted to join the another run on 8th of September, but I would be in KL eating at some shop (aku suka makan)

Wasn't really happy with my time, I was aiming below 1:30 but ended up 1:36:48. The English have landed and I ran in pain. But I was able to finish it on time and I guess that's ok. (Stupid english, have to land on that day. >_> *fyi not the people english! I'm not racist! Well, I think I'm not*)

Proof I actually ran! I got medal again leee LOL

Yosh, have to gambatte for 21km next year! 

Day 9 – A photo of the item I last purchased.

I can't remember buying anything, most of my money I spend on food and cake. orz

Gomen ;_;

Really sorry for being MIA. Was getting ready for the BIM and such. Will update my blog when I got the time. And also the 30 day challenge. OTL

Day 8 – A song to match my mood.

A song I listen and sing everyday is My Way by Frank Sinatra
This song gives me hope and positive energy.

And now, the end is here
And so I face the final curtain
My friend, I'll say it clear
I'll state my case, of which I'm certain
I've lived a life that's full
I traveled each and ev'ry highway
And more, much more than this, I did it my way

Regrets, I've had a few
But then again, too few to mention
I did what I had to do and saw it through without exemption
I planned each charted course, each careful step along the byway
And more, much more than this, I did it my way

Yes, there were times, I'm sure you knew
When I bit off more than I could chew
But through it all, when there was doubt
I ate it up and spit it out
I faced it all and I stood tall and did it my way

I've loved, I've laughed and cried
I've had my fill, my share of losing
And now, as tears subside, I find it all so amusing
To think I did all that
And may I say, not in a shy way,
"Oh, no, oh, no, not me, I did it my way"

For what is a man, what has he got?
If not himself, then he has naught
To say the things he truly feels and not the words of one who kneels
The record shows I took the blows and did it my way!

Yes, it was my way

Day 7 – My Dream House

My dream house is a place I can call home.
My dream house is where I feel the safest. ( Well not if my family becomes a brain eating zombie.)
My dream house is a place where I can scream around and no one will thinks I'm crazy.
No matter is big or small. From wood or cement. Snow or stone. Glass or a tend. It doesn't matter.
My dream house is a place no matter how long I have not return, but non the less I can still say I'm home when I return.
That is my dream house.

Because I was there for you too.

I never did forget you, you were always there. A tiny part of my heart still belongs to you; the laugher, the smiles, the tears, the rage, everything. Just that time have shown me what is more important, my family, my friends, my goal and my future. I won't forget you, because I know how it feels when someone you loved so much forgets you and every single moment you have spent together. Is painful, is more painful than a sharply cutting through the soft skin of your wrist. 

The day where we will cross path, we may be stranger, a little smile and go on with our daily life or a handshake, starting small talks like " How is life?" Or maybe, I don't know. The next life? 

I have grown to be wise and confident. I have gain knowledge from what I have been through. Without you, I won't be who I am today. The laugher we shared shown me that I am never a lone, the random smile we show to each other taught me to be always kind to others, the tears I shed for you made me stronger and have more pride in myself. The rage we always had, let me understand I should accept the good and bad side of everyone who will come into my life.  

These are the reason why I won't forget you, you have taught me what I need to be a better person. To get myself ready for the cruel cruel world out there. 

I won't forget you, I never will. Because you were there for me. I hope you don't forget me. Because I was there for you too.     

Day 6 – A photo of something that makes me happy.

Day 6 – A photo of something that makes me happy.

I love cake, cake makes me happy. The taste is sweet and wonderful, it just makes all the stress go away. The cake in the picture are crepe cake from a new cake up at Lintas called Cafe De Vie, there have many different flavours and I haven't get the chance to try green tea yet. Haiz. Anyhow, I can't wait to go KL on September to try Vanilla Cakes's crepe cake. Can't wait. Yum! :P

Day 5 – A photo of my old-self.

 Day 5 a photo of my old self.

The left one was taken 2011, looks at how tired and stressed out look and I was wearing make up too. I sucked at it so bad before.

The right one was taken last Saturday (17/08/13)

Yes, both picture is me. From the looks from the picture my make up skill improve a lot and my facial skin is better too. But honestly, the most different between the 2 pictures is confident, maybe you the readers don't see it but that is what the picture is telling me. 2 years apart and I have grown up better and well prettier? (Kena slap by fish)

That night.

Early morning bird singing,
Rise it's another day,
Phone goes "ring ring"
Who might it be?

Smell of sweet alcohol,
Mix with happy laughter,
"Sorry, hi it's me."
I shiver with fear.

All eyes on me,
Worried looking ones too,
"are you free tomorrow?"
My heart fall apart.

Sweet vodka hitting me,
Drowning with tired mind,
I stood on tall,
I won't fall again.

Morning air smells dew,
Hot cup of tea,
Regrets is finally shown,
What is the reason?

Hollow eyes with tears,
Shaky fear of abuse,
Picked up the broken,
Fix it with love.

Past linger to me,
Cold wing push me,
The warm nice hug,
Kissed on my head.

Words play strong ones,
Roses can protect itself,
I was always wise,
Love made me blind.

Rumours is a virus,
Past has already written ,
Words did not shared,
It was always close.

Beautiful blue blue sky,
Where could you be?
Confident I have found,
Cause you aren't here.

 

Day 4 – My Name (In-depth).

My name is Alyssa Lee Wen Yi.

The name Alyssa means 'of noble kind.' The name is German in origin and can also mean great happiness and joy.

My Family name Lee means Plum Tree

Wen 文 means culture, literacy.

Yi 億 means Billion.

I don't really understand what it's suppose to mean. But yea, that's my name. :3

Day 3 – What is True Love?

What is true love? Well to me true love is accepting your lover, the good and the bad. I understand how loves works, it's all hormones. It is says that these hormones only last about 2 to 3 years, but those that can stay longer; well that's because of the time spend for one another, the sweet memories and many more. That is true love to me.

Day 2 – A photo of something I ate today.

What I ate today is Fish noodle with tomato soup!

It's really near my house and the shop name is How Kee. Can go there try try >w<

Sorry for the weird picture angle. 

Day 1 – Who am I & 10 facts! + Recent Photo of me.

So the 1st challage is Who am I & 10 facts! + Recent Photo of me.

Who am I?
Well, the name Alyssa Lee. I'm a December baby, I'm the youngest in my family and also the only female in my family.

So 10 facts about me.

1. I love sweets

I love eating anything sweets, but not to the point of overly sweet. I like dark chocolate not milk chocolate, I love cakes and dessert.

2. I swear a lot.

To me, everyone swears. It's a saying I heard once a long time ago, "We don't say bad words, but our heart says it all the time. So it's better to say it out loud than to say it in our heart." What's the diff with saying What the fish or what the duck? It's means the fucking same thing in our own heart. I understand really well when it's right and when it's not, and who to talk too. But during normal conversation with friends or having fun time and those people cant accept it, they got no life. Or rather yet, lying to themselves.

3. I sometime wish to be born as a boy.

I'm rude and not lady like at. I like sports and running around for no reason. I feel that I don't have anything feminine in me, but my good friend Zak said otherwise. I sometime felt that I was suppose to be born as a boy, but my mother wanted a girl so badly so therefore god gave her what she wanted and wala! I'm here.

4. I'm a sapiosexual.

Everyone have fetish, I remember one of my ex he got a thing for legs it freak the hell out of me when he kissed my leg. But anyhow, I got a fetish towards a person's intelligence. I didn't realize this till I think back about my past relationship, they were all quite intelligence. Not the genius kind but know some thing that I don't for an example, my 1st ex he knows a lot about games and he got a very creative mind, for my 2nd ex he was well an engineer, I hope that explain it? as for my 3rd one he was the most intelligence among 3 of them, the thought of marrying him actually came to mind but well it didn't work. To me, sapiosexual is like a cruse. I can't stand stupidity and ignorance. If anyone is interested in me and can't keep up on my own knowledge, I will just lost interest. No matter how rich or handsome they are, I just don't wanna brother them any more.

5. I have low self esteem

Since form 4,I know I know, I look like I'm always with full confident. But actually I went as low as despair.

6. I'm a book worm

Reading have been a stress release since I can remember. Reading books makes me feel like I can escape reality event just a few hours.

7. I swing both ways.

Yes, I like girls and boys. Problem?

8. I do cosplay

Cosplay play a small part in saving me from depression.

9. I fall into depression

Tried to suicide a couple of time but kept failing. That just made it worst and I ended up in despair, but thanks to friends and family members I got better. Love them. <3

10. I love Japan's culture.

People always mistaken me that I like Japan because of Anime. WRONG. I have been into Japan culture long before I know about Anime. To me, Japan Culture is really rich and beautiful. I too like my own race Chinese culture, but sorry to say I like Japan's more.

AND LAST. Recent Photo of me.

Don't mind the tired face, it was 3 in the morning. 

 

30 days challenges.

I saw a friend who try doing it but fail. So I guess I will give it a try. :3

Day 1 – Who am I & 10 facts! + Recent Photo of me.
Day 2 – A photo of something I ate today.
Day 3 – What is True Love?
Day 4 – My Name (In-depth).
Day 5 – A photo of my old-self.
Day 6 – A photo of something that makes me happy.
Day 7 – My Dream House
Day 8 – A song to match my mood.
Day 9 – A photo of the item I last purchased.
Day 10 – A photo of my favorite place to hang-out.
Day 11 – What’s in my bag?
Day 12 – A City I am currently live in.
Day 13 – Goals?
Day 14 – My Favourite Quote
Day 15 – Something I don’t leave the house without.
Day 16 – My Dream Car.
Day 17 – Something I am looking forward to.
Day 18 – Something I crave a lot.
Day 19 – Something I miss a lot.
Day 20 – Nicknames.
Day 21 – Favourite picture of myself OF ALL TIME, Why?
Day 22 – Someone who has hurt me.
Day 23 – Something I've learnt..
Day 24 – Song that I’m currently addicted.
Day 25 – What’s in my wallet?
Day 26 – My Ideal Husband.
Day 27 – A picture of me last year and now and how have I changed since then?
Day 28 – My favorite movie of all time.
Day 29 – Something you could never get tired of doing.
Day 30 – A photograph of myself today + three good things that have happened in the past 30 days

Is not that easy.

Sometimes, when people are sad, nothing can really bring them back up right away. Not words, not good advice, or even the people around them trying to make them happy can't make them happy just like that. We should never tell someone to just be happy and forget about what's holding them down because we're not dealing with the pain in their heart. It takes time and patience for someone to get back up. It's not that easy.

Photo credit to my friend Locksley. You can check out his FB for more picture.

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Don't Judge Others Because They Sin Differently Than You.

Sorry for being "mia" for some time, was really busy with work and "ahem" *blush* lol

But today I'm going to post about my very own point of view. Lately I have been hanging out with a different group of friends, who kinda messed up in life. Let me elaborate what I meant as messed up,those people are the ones you called a "bad" person. Those you judge at 1st glare, because they smokes, drinks, have lots of tattoo and etc.. I understand that doing all these isn't good, more like a sin. They didn't finish high school, got knocked up at 16 years old.

Everyone makes mistake, me, you, them, everyone. But the mistake we make is just different. So what makes you have the right to judge them for their mistake or sin? You too do sin. Just different or maybe more accepted for sociality. That's how fucked up sociality is. A mistake, is still a mistake. A sin is still a sin.