My cruse.

Please, stop telling me that my ability is a gift. I find it as a cruse. I'm only 19 and I got the mind of a 30 year old. How is that a gift? Having so many ideas and ambitions but no money. I may have all the knowledge that a 30 year old should have. But it makes me feel not young. Do you know how lonely is it when you don't have friends that you around the same age as you? It feels very lonely. Most of my friends are in their late 20's to late 40's. Because? Of my cruse. When ever I talk to people who are older than me, when I correct them. They won't admit it and start saying that I'm still a kid and I shouldn't be knowing these kind of things yet. Do you know how tiring that is? When you have a brain of a 30 year old, the knowledge of a 30 year but always being told as a kid. A child. But when I talk to people around my age, they will say that I'm too old for them. I get sick when I talk to people my age and when I have to lower my level just so I can talk to them and I get very angry when I talk to older people. But in the end, no matter how old my brain is, I'm still a 19 year old girl.