his hugs

I like sleeping with him. Not in being naked and having pleasure. But just sleep. Him holding me tight while my face is pressed against his chest. His soft snore and how he twitch out of the sudden. How he whisper to my ear softly when I have a bad dream "Everything is fine. Im here". How warm his body is, always keeps me warm when it's raining cats and dogs. His hugs are the best. I feel protected, relax and loved. I wish we could sleep together every night. Holding one another slowly going to wonderland. But the heaven would want us to wait for the right moment. Even so, I want to hold him. His touch and smells still lingers.

How fate played with us.

We were once connected by our mother's friendship. I remembered how you used to come over to my house to play with my brother and I would play with your sister. I remembered how you would team up with my brother just to make me cry. Time flew by, we lost the connection. You remembered my brother and I remembered your sister, but we forgot one another. It's like; we didn't exist in the flow of memories. After around 10 years, we crossed path once again. How I was your childhood friend's sister, and how you were my childhood friend's brother. And now, you are my knight in shining armour and I'm your princess.It's amazing how we took different path during those 10 years of losing contact; and yet here we are. Hand in hand.

" He is someone I have beautiful memories with, but he is just a stranger."

Breaking up isn't that hard. No matter what reason it is, cheated, lost of feelings, someone else. There are many reasons to break someone's heart. Someone's trust, dreams and hope. But yet, at the same time, breaking up with someone is the hardest thing to do. You're not only breaking your leman's heart but yours too; you choose to lose your best friend.

Not everyone can break up and stay as friends. I dare say, most couldn't. That is how we lose our best friends. We lose the people who are most important to us and, let’s be honest, end up lost for a good moment afterwards ourselves.

It's like, "I love you and yet I don't." With time it will heal, we learn to pick up the broken pieces and fix it up and continue our direction in life. But not all of us completely move on. Some of us still hold on to that friendship even though it is long gone. Why? We love them. We wish they could be part of our lives. But at the same time we understand that is impossible.

It's like how the saying goes.
" He is someone I have beautiful memories with, but he is just a stranger."

It's the twilight hour and I woke up with cold sweat, shortness of breath and tears rolling down my cheek. It's the nightmare that I dream from time to time, I don't know what it's means. But I do know, an incident that happened a few years ago. That moment will always be buried in me, the fear I felt, the tears I cried. I still remember clearly how it happened. The feelings of his hands around my neck, the madness in his eyes, it's hunts me. No matter how hard I try, this memory will always be with me. Tormenting me.  

Happy Birthday to you.

Working hard and forgetting,
Looking for new hope,
Did you see that?
The light in her.

Maybe it's right now,
The time starts here.
Music played around us,
Happy Birthday to you.

Kuroko No Basket Photo shoot.

Last Sunday ( 23rd of Feb) me and my friend did a cosplay photoshoot. It's Kuroko no Basket but it's Kise X Aomine wedding shoot. I cosplayed as Kuroko and it was really hard to cosplay him! All he does is do poker face and I can't help but keep laughing and smiling. Don't really what to post but here are some picture.

Me as Kuroko. What do you think? Did I pull him off? 

A normal Picture 

 AND

A summer news report 

Kise - Red Kidding

Aomine - Mokuto Rei

Momoi - Wumei Ying Ying Chang

Kuroko - McAlySugar (me)

Kagami - 水银狐

Midorima - Wong Jinn Vien

Takao - X Ku Shao

Akashi - Ritsu Rachel

Murasakibara - Wong Jinn Vien,

Photog - Azhar Panda & Shero Line 

That's all for now XOXO~

To be a good PR is to be a good Player.

As I have said in my past post, I'm back to school. I like to take this change for more reason to blog. Haha. For I guess I will post daily things that happened in college and what assignment I'm working on, etc.

So, I'm going to start with yesterday class. For today, I don't have any class.

Yesterday, I only had one class and that is one of my many subject in PR. So my lecturer asked me and my classmate to presence our last week assignment and I failed miserably. My essay was good, according to my lecturer. But not my presentation, it was horrible. I was nervous like hell and I kept on choking on my words. After that was over, my lecturer told us that we need to be confident. PR is all about confident. Even if we are wrong in our result, we still need to be confident and say it's right. * I find that funny*

After that, she even quote this " To be a good PR is to be a good Player " She even said " Be a slut, but an expensive slut. Don't let anyone touch you."