夢が叶うん

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How cruel this world can be, but at the same time how beautiful it can be.

Something came to mind today, everything in life seem so different now. I remember when I was younger, I wanted to get married at the age of 21. So when I was 16 years old, I was kinda scare that no one would actually love me. But look at me now? I'm going to be 20 on December and I'm still single. The thought of wanting to get married at 21 just disappear. I also remember when I was younger, I wanted to be a florist because I like flower, but soon after I want to be a baker because I used to bake with my mother. But when I finished high school, reality hit me and I started to get scare of what my future would be. I wanted to go study, but I couldn't get a loan from the government. So, the studies idea just drop. But with lots of up and down. I get to be where I am today.

What I'm trying to say is, sometimes what we dreamed of having/be when we were younger, don't really come up to be when we grow up. At some age when you hit mid 20's or early 30's some even before 20's you will realize how cruel this world can be, but at the same time how beautiful it can be.

Make up!

So, a friend of mine showed me her old and now pic of her skin and make up skill. So I guess I show mine too :)

Before:(Skin)
Oh god why! At that time I have horrible skin. Pimples and blackheads everywhere! You can see how oily my face is at that time!Oh and look at that stress out face too!

Now: (Skin)

Now I take very good care of my skin and health. But because I'm working and staying up late because of work, I get eye bags and also the stress out look(Not as bad as last time laa). And don't mind the uneven bangs, I couldn't stand the length so I cut it myself because my hair stylish wasn't in town. :( 

Before:(make up)

This was taken mid last year for a friend's wedding. And Damn, my make up skill was bad. I couldn't even draw a proper eye liner. 

Now: (make up)

BAM, now I look like some bishie! As you can see, I have a wide nose and long face. I used to hate these two flaws the most, but after playing around with make up and talking to professional make up artists. I came to love my flaws. Instead of hating them, I should use them as my advantage. With some skill, I can make my nose look like I have a higher bridge. And with my long face, I can cosplay as a boy! And if I wanna cosplay as a girl with round cute face with the power of make up, it can be done so!

(P.S I was doing a costest for Okita Sogo from the anime Gintama)

Anyhow, that is all :)

Good night. xoxo :)

My HK Trip.

Sorry for the MIA, I have been so busy with my new job and with election and etc.. Anyhow, I don't really know what to post, but how about my HK Trip pictures? I will only post a few.. I will post the rest in my FB, so you can check it out there.

I'm too lazy of a person to post it here. So there you go. I will try my best to post it all in my FB. OTL

ランダム～～

So today I be typing in Japanese. I still suck at it, so please don't kill me ;_;

こんばんわ、私はほんとに幸せです。なぜならマラソンキャンセルされました！！今わ訓練するもっと時間お得。今まわめまいぉ感じる。だからつまりすべてせす。ランダム投稿の申し訳ありません。お休みなさい。ＷＷＷＷＷ

Translation~
Today, I am very happy. Because the marathon was cancel!! Now I have more time to train. So that's all. I feel dizzy now. Sorry for the random post. Goodnight. Hahahahaha

Forgotten face

There are faces that have been long forgotten in a memory that is slowly fading away. Somewhere in between of getting caught up in focusing on what is presently in my life to where my life is going, Time was able to cunningly robbed me of the memories of the past that I once knew so well.

Though the memories of my best friends are forever ingrained in mind, what saddens me is all those other faces that were there in elementary, junior high, and high school that have now become blurs; becoming strangers of which I even question the existence of. People that I had conversations with, saw almost everyday of my youth, and even considered as my friends vanished with almost no trace of evidence left behind to reveal that they were once part of my life.

I understand it’s natural to drift away from people and it’s difficult to remain in communication with everyone you ever met - but I still find it bothersome knowing that I was once part of a persons life that I may not even give a second glance to if I passed them on the street. I wonder what happened to everyone once we all went on our separate ways from being kids to adults now. If they have kids and family now, what jobs they have, to if they are similar to the person I once knew so many years ago. It’s even depressing to think how it’s possible that some of us could of went through unimaginable tribulations or may no longer be here anymore.

It’s like reading the beginnings of the novels of these forgotten faces only to misplace the book and be forever curious how their stories turned out. In a way, i just want to know that everyone is okay.

Recipe fail?

So, today I tried out the cheese cake I made and it was bad! My brother and friends said it was alright, but it's not. The cheese was too sticky and soft and the cookie was too soft for my liking. Thinking the ratio of the cream and cheese wasn't right, but from my knowledge the ratio would be alright, maybe it's something else? I didn't beat the cream well? Or I didn't press the cookie hard? I don't know. Tomorrow is Saturday, I think I have free time after my morning run and I think I can finish another cake before my class start. Which start at 1pm. I think I can do it. And again, if it turn out alright, I'll share my recipe :)