The Escape.

There are times when I just want to escape from everything. To run far away where none of my problems would be able to find me. Haven’t you ever had that feeling before? To leave all your schedules, to leave all your responsibilities, and to leave all the drama behind. Where you just want to get in a car and drive without any direction?

It’s hard not to imagine what it would be like just to leave and feel the weight of the world leave your shoulders and to be truly free from what seems like chains and shackles of the life you’re living. What would it be like to be the one who leaves instead of the person who always gets left behind? I wonder what it would be like to finally find that escape from the person you are; to have the restart to be the person you always wanted to be.

Life gets so difficult at times that it seems so much easier to just forget everything. To find a way out of this unbreakable prison that you unfortunately share with the past that haunts you and where hope of the future has died. Though this is an imaginary concept that will never become a reality, it hard not to dream of that one day you will be able to escape.

Deep web

While you are reading this, going on with your daily life. Waking up for school or work, go to class or office, go back home for dinner and online till your tired. And doing the same thing tomorrow. But, have you ever thought, maybe there more to it? Everyday, we see good, things that won't harm us, etc.Yes, we do see rape case, robbery, polities and so on. It's not that bad till you have seen what I have seen yesterday. A friend of mine told me about deep web. It's somewhere in the internet, he just briefly told me what is it; I got very curious and I went to search it. I downloaded the wed browser called "Tor" ( you can google it by yourself), it looks like normal browser, but it's everything a normal human have thought of knowing.

So from what I know so far, from my friend, the internet has 2 surfaces. The surface web and the deep web. The surface web is what we all know of, google, youtube etc. Then you have the deep web, this is the dark side.It is says that this deep web are the hackers' world. This is the place you can buy pure cocaine, buy guns, bombs, hire hitmen, and lots more horrible sinister things. I clicked on a video it just stated there "CP with animal" And guess what I saw? A maybe, 4 to 6 year old boy got rape by dog. Than I realize, CP means child pornography. I also saw, hitman advertisement.

"if you have sense for business, you can also find someone who would like to kill someone and he has money to pay, you can make a deal with him and send me my price while the rest you keep for yourself.

If you ask yourself why someone would need to hire hitman online, I will tell you simply: because it is anonymous with Tor software and Bitcoins. You don't know me, I don't know you, you can't send me in the prison, I can't send you in the prison. You can always find examples of criminals who collaborated with cops when they face 20 years of prison, and you can finish in the prison because of such people. At other side, you can always find examples that police found who had interest to kill dead person and they can come to you and you can give testimony and hitman can finish in the prison 20 years. So, it is mutual interest to make everything anonymously.

1)If you hire me in EU countries, you pay me 5000 EUR (in Bitcoins) in advance to prepare everything for action (buying of weapon, car or motorcycle, fake docs, driving license, etc). If you want target eliminated out of EU, then you must pay 10 000 EUR (in Bitcoins) in advance and you must wait 2 months that I can come there. On my price, you should add the fee of owner of this website, I think it is 4% but you should check it.
2)If you have any problem with any kind of enemy who disturb your life, you can hire me. For example, many criminals will refuse to kill a cop, prosecutor, judge, etc, because they don't want to come under pressure of police and newspapers. I am not part of organized criminality and I can do any job.
3)Target must be older than 16.
4)You must give me in advance next information about target: picture, name, approximately age, home and working address, what car he/she uses and what is registration of the car. If you know how many members of family are in house, it would be good to know, but it is not condition. Any photo file must be uploaded to anonymous server: ********* - supported file types: gif, jpg, jpeg and png. max 2MB, link will be visible only to us because it will be encrypted in message.
5)Prices are different, depending who is target. You must send me money 2 times, first time 5 000 EUR, when I buy weapon and everything what I need for action, you must pay the rest of money, after that I finish the job. You need somebody to be eliminated, I don't need it, so, you must take a risk about money, everything is anonymous, so...I don't want to eliminate for half price.
- To eliminate some ordinary person, my price is 20 000 EUR (in Bitcoins).
- To eliminate criminal or cop, my price is 50 000 EUR (in Bitcoins). If he is bog boss or higher ranking cop, price is 100 000 EUR (in Bitcoins).
- To eliminate paparazzi, my price is 50 000 EUR (in Bitcoins) and for journalist 100 000 EUR (in Bitcoins).
- To eliminate a businessman, price range from 50 000 to 200 000 EUR (in Bitcoins).
- To eliminate your rich wife/husband, price depend from wealth of that person.

 

And there many more. When I saw the "CP" I quickly close it and delete the whole browser, it was very disturbing, traumatize, etc. But that didn't stop me, I made more research and found out that there are "Levels" In the deep web.

Level 0 – Common Web
This level is the one you browse everyday: YouTube, Facebook, Wikipedia and other famous or easily accessible websites can be found here.

Level 1 – Surface Web
This level is still accessible through normal means, but contains “darker” websites, such as Reddit.

Level 2 – Bergie Web
This level is the last one normally accessible: all levels that follow this one have to be accessed with a proxy, Tor or by modifyig your hardware. In this level you can find some “underground” but still indexed websites, such as 4chan.

Level 3 – Deep Web (This is where I went into)
The first part of this level has to be accessed with a proxy. It contains CP, gore, hacking websites… Here begins the Deep Web. Second part of this level is only accessible through Tor, and contains more sensible information.

Level 4 – Charter Web
This level is also divided in two parts. The first can be accessed through Tor. Things such as drug and human trafficking, banned movies and books and black markets exist there. The second part can be accessed through a hardware modification: a “Closed Shell System”. Here, shit becomes serious. This part of the Charter Web contains hardcore CP, experimental hardware information (“Gadolinium Gallium Garnet Quantum Electronic Processors”…), but also darker information, such as the “Law of 13″, World War 2 experiments, and even the location of Atlantis.

Level 5 – Marianas Web
You’ll be lucky to find anyone who knows about it. Probably secret government documentation

So far, there are no proof that level 6,7 and 8 exist. But what I read in forums said that the hackers are trying to keep it away from us normal people. Because it may contain some super dark secret. but they are rumors going around saying that on the 8th level, an Anon( some said that the Anon is god, an alien, or just a normal hacker) will chat with you. And will tell you the future or answer your unquestionable question.. But than again there is another rumor saying that if you even go in level 6,7, and 8 you will be assassinated.

I suggest that, DON'T and I MEAN DON'T ever think of going in there. But, if you have the balls to go in. Be my guess.    

 

Mister Blue.

You're sick, Mister Blue.
Because I know you best.
I don't care if they hate me, so long as you can remember me.

Beat me with those dirty hands,
Betray me so much till I cannot feel pan.
Hurt me with pretty lies,
Hold me till I say "I love you"

*note*

A friend just broke up. Her ex-lover was... I don't know what's the right word for it. Bad? No no, worst than that. He is a liar, he lies to everyone and everyone believes him. He made her pregnant. And beat her up till she needed an abortion. She run away from home when she found out she was having his child; she can't go back home now. Even he have hurt her so much, he didn't gave her anything but only pain. Lie to her over and over again, hurt her over and over again. But she still can say she loved him and still dose. She is so young, only 18. I somehow see myself in her. I pity her, maybe I just pity myself.   

Hetalia.

I have been a big fan of Hetalia for almost 4 years. Because of this anime, I get to pass history exam orz. 

So anyhow, just a random post. Found many beautiful fan-art from the internet. How you guys enjoy as much as I do while looking at these pictures.

England and her Majesty Elizabeth II

America and George Washington 

Char with the head of their country's map.

Germany and Italy during WW1. Their uniform are base on the real uniform used during WW1. but than again, there are some changes to it. 

Looking back at it all.

I’m sure that one day we will all look back at it all. We will read old conversations we once had that are tucked away in messages and emails that were unopened for years, look at pictures that were taken at forgotten places and with forgotten people we were once friends with, and see things that we once wrote for ourselves in privacy that exposed what our deepest thoughts and feelings were. And in the process of it all, we slowly will be reacquainting ourselves to a stranger that once was us years ago as memories that you thought were forever lost come flooding back.

I guarantee that we will cry missing how youthful we once were, missing people that were such a big part of our lives that we drifted away from, and missing just how different life use to be. We will laugh at old conversations with friends that are filled inside jokes, stories, and crushes you once experienced. We will smile at how far we have come and forgotten memories of what once was the greatest times of your life.

One day, we will remember all this all over again. Reading the very first few chapters of our lives that can no longer be edited.

My direction in life ( not one direction ah.. there are gay =_=)

Just another small update before I hit the hay. I just finished my morning jog and I'm dead tired. So anyway, a few days ago a friend who is facing depression asked me "how did you over come your depression? I don't like feeling like this at all." It took me awhile to answer her, but my answer was my direction in life. And I wrote a note for her to keep up and this is it.


1. Keep a journal where you record all your different thoughts, feelings and ideas. Look for patterns and consistency – ideas that grab you and get stronger over time.

2. Explore new passions, interests and hobbies. Some of those will stick and intensify; others will slowly fade and disappear.

3. Step outside your comfort zone and try and break with your old routine. That will lead you in different directions, release creative thoughts, and spark some fresh ideas.

4. Talk to people to get different perspectives, and listen to their feedback, and points of view.

5. Have the self-confidence to listen to your heart, and work of developing your creativity.

6. Review your current goals – and how much they mean to you. Ask yourself: Do you still feel motivated, energized and inspired?

7. Surround yourself with people who are optimistic, positive, affirming, and who want the best for you. Also, it may help to widen your circle of friends as that helps to uncover different aspects of yourself.

But in the end. What inspired me the most are the people I have met. Everyday I meet new people, while working, at convention or even when I do my morning jog. That's what inspired me the most.

Just a little update

Just a little update. I have been very busy with work and for Chinese New Year too. I was so busy till to the point of forgetting to read my phone message. Anyhow, I was scrolling on FB a few days ago and I came to saw this picture. 

                             

I find it very true. I may not hold any feelings for him anymore. But I still tend to ask myself how is he doing and so on. Maybe deep down somewhere in my heart, I still love him but not as much as before.